Encounter With Light I

Sheldon Vanauken continues his description of the process of his conversion:

Christianity-in a word, the divinity of Jesus-seemed probable to me. But there is a gap between the probable and proved. How was I to cross it? If I were to stake my whole life on the Risen Christ, I wanted proof. I wanted certainty. I wanted to see Him eat a bit of fish. I wanted letters of fire across the sky. I got none of these. And I continued to hang about on the edge of the gap.

Vanauken, A Severe Mercy, 98.